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Yea! I am recharged!

Last night after church service, there was a class for college and university students called "Habitutes". They always have it twice in a month. We have entered Chapter8 "Pop Quiz"… yea…  so throughout the lesson, we learned about the "pop quiz" given by God. We got the notes and there was a list about 10 types of "test" usually given by God which we will take in our life. Discussing and sharing about some questions, we found that in the Psalm 7:9, 17:3 and 26:2, the writter actually asked God to examine him… try his mind and his heart. But for us, we were afraid of the test and always trying to avoid it. During the lesson, I recalled about some tests that I have passed through and wondering whether I will pass the test if God is giving me again. I wish that I can.

Today I was quite down because I have received a bad news from LipHaw. Argh… That’s not what I want… It ruined my plan… I was frustrated… But immediately, the words of God came across my mind. It reminded me about the "pop quiz". So after few minutes thinking, I prayed to God… I told him that I commited the things onto His Hands, He is the priority of my life… But I need His help to take away the sadness and disappointment in my heart. After the prayer, I did not think so much as I was busy over cleaning up my room. When got LipHaw’s call at evening, he mentioned about the thing… it made me feel down again I lost the mood to do everything.But still, I went for the CCF, our chinese christian fellowship weekly gathering.

On the way walking to the venue, I was thinking that how I should face the brothers and sisters since my mood was not so good. The whole gathering was great… we praise and worship Him, watching movie of "Martin Luther", celebrating September bro and sis birthday, sharing photos, supper’ing… the fellowship with brothers and sisters in christ had made me refresh in Him. I was filled with joy again. I am recharged!

It’s unbelievable. But it’s true. This is not the first time already… I used to be cheered up even though I was moody before went to the fellowship. All the worries were kept far away from me… just within 2-3 hours time. I am glad to be in this christ family… Thanks to my dearest CCF… Thanks my beloved God…

Anyway, I don’t think I have passed the test for this time. Now everything is in the progress, I will still be fed up when LipHaw mentioned the things to me. I am waiting for a better way that God has prepared for me… I know He did prepare and it will be a good one for me

It has been around 2 years since I accepted Christ.I have gone through many things… throughout the years, I grow in Him.

Christian is a religion. But it is more to a relationship with God. People always asking, does God really exist? They want it to be proven in order for them to believe. When Christians prove to them by sharing testimonial, they listen but they can’t make themselves believe in the words. Because they are not the person who experience that. Only when they experience by themselves, they will believe. But the thing is, they refuse to experience, or even give a try…

Some people saying that they believe in God. But what they believe is that all the gods of every religion are real. In the Bible, it is clearly stated that there is only one God existed, that is the one who created this universe. Other so-called "god" are just the images created by human themselves… it is one of the devil, Satan’s tricks to deceive human and keep them getting far from God. So if you believe in Christianity, you should believe that there is no god other than Jesus.

If Jesus is not the real God, as I am someone who always seek for the truth, I should have already quit this religion 1 year ago. But my faith is growing stronger and stronger in Him. God works on my life. I can feel and experience Him. Recently I have found a great in my character. I used to be a person who will get angry easily. Last few weeks, my brother lost the T-shirts I bought which were quite important to me. But surprisingly, I managed to calm myself and did not blame him! Because I heard God speaking to me, it’s not a big deal to lose those 2 T-shirts, I should forgive my brother as he was not purposely to lose my T-shirts and I should also forgive the people who stole my T-shirts for he didn’t know what he was doing. Even now when I recall about the thing happened that day, I am excited. Because I can make it finally! I managed to control my temper and learnt to forgive the people around… by the strength God given to me. Maybe people will say that this is just a process of growing where everyone will face and learn. But as we know, human is week. Everyone has his/her own weaknesses. We can hardly overcome it… but with the power of God, we can make it!

Hmm.. this blog entry should come to the end… as I should go to the bed now

I want to say that, I am blessed to know Jesus Christ.

And I hope one day you will say it to me also.